Helpp…i’m Crying Now-(A Cutter’s Story)?

Question by Star-Starlit<3: helpp…i’m crying now-(a cutter’s story)?
i use to be an excutter, but then i really wanted to go back,
but i didnt want anyone to kno,
so i did it again behind everyone’s back…
and then i have like a lot of cuts on my arm,
but hid them well,
no one bothered asking why i wore sleeves since it is still “cool” and “chilly” now-a-days…
but then my best #1 friend knew i was an excutter,
and always had a fear that i would go backk…
and then she found in my pocket a small scissor i had and was like “what’s that? why do u have that?”
and i was pale as anything and freaking out,
and now she knows i’m doing it again.
yet i lied to her and told her i was just “thinking”
amazingly she believed me and then cried saying that she doesnt want me doing it again…

but i dont want to stop,
i want to continue,
i’ll stop when i want to,
but i dontwant to right now…
but i dont want to lie to everyone…

and dont say “tell a teacher, counselor, ur parents, a hotline”
whatever…
cuz i am not,
i kno i am a young teen,
but i just dont want to stop..
please help me on advice.
and dont say simply “stop cutting”
cuz u already know the answer…

plz answer-thnx xoxo
its not too much of a question-mostly i just want advice on what i should do and what u think of my situation…either ways,
ttylzzz xD

Best answer:

Answer by Lillana
u need to c a counselor or sumtin cuz sumtin serious could happen to u. like u mite wanna commit suicide.

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